The downfall

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Here it comes the downfall of an innocent child… This would be taking place at the age of seven halfway through grade two. This is were things started getting confusing for me. Nothing much in my life has changed it was a good summer spent with family mostly playing sports I loved sports growing up it ended up being my getaway. Their was a change in my life at this point in my life … I would start getting rides home from school and spending time with my “uncle”.. All seemed to be pretty normal at first I was just a naïve little kid why wouldn’t it be?. My uncle would pick me up and I would drive around with him for hours in the front seat while I attempted to do my homework he had to keep going to see friends and buy cigarettes.. Little did I know at that age I was sitting beside a monster who was dealing drugs while I was sitting clueless… Clueless that he had drugs on him selling them clueless that he had a gun on him for protection… This was happening for months until I finally clued in what was happening … It was happening for over a year now and I knew how to weigh out drugs before I knew how to tie my own shoes. I wasn’t that naïve little boy anymore my eyes were opening up to the world around me they were opened up to what this world really is. It was the summer going into grade four were the real demise and turn in my life happened. It was this summer I had to spend with this uncle and his girlfriend who turned out to be a prostitue… It was this summer my innocence my care free caring loving attitude was taken from…

On many occasions I would be sleeping in a room alone and my uncle would come in… Without going into much details this is the summer I saw a grown man dick… This is the first time I’ve been touched sexually… It happened for two full month’s and everyday he would come into my room a little bit of my life… My sanity.. My love would disappear slowly but surely I was turning into someone my parents had never hoped for… This has been kept secret for many years and only two others know about this… This is the summer I made the decision to stop giving a fuck. How am I supposed to love when the ones who are supposed to love me are hurting me? Is this what love is? Is life not all sunshine and rainbows but more dark and sinister… ? I begged to go back home and wasn’t allowed too.. I don’t blame anybody I mean nobody knew what was going on they just assumed I was bored spending the summer with my uncle. But believe me if I could do it all over again I would tell everyone I knew this was the moment the summer that defined my life forever. I suggest if you ever are going through anything like this you speak up and tell the people you love because if you don’t keeping it in will literally kill you inside…

Here’s links to others stories that will show you’re not alone. Give them a read.

True Colors Fly in Blue and Black

https://stlh2oo.wordpress.com/2016/04/08/to-protect-image-or-to-protect-our-kids-from-molesters/

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The beginning

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This is how it all begins, this story is going to start as a child at the age of six. At this crucial age our minds are molding and all we are taught is to love to share and respect others. This is a fairly simple age you go to school do your work go home and play. It was at this time in grade one that you start interacting with other kids and start learning from them and not just your parents or siblings. It was at this age I started to learn what hate was . I wasn’t a liked boy i was different I was the only non white child in my class. I’m not going to say that kids were racist but boy at this age all you get from kids is brutal honesty. I started to learn to just keep to myself and do my school work go home and that’s that end of the bullying. I was a very good kid always did well In school all the way from kindergarten to the third grade. It was at that time at an early age something inside me changed… We will get to that later.

In the first grade you don’t really have a way to cope with bullying your parents will ask if you’re OK and you always respond with yes I’m fine and go on with your day. Most people don’t realize it’s at this early age you learn to suppress your feelings. This is the age that you learn to just go about your business and you don’t share your feelings with anyone when youre hurt because you simply don’t know better and that paves the way for you too never share your feelings so nobody ever knows what’s truly going on in your mind.

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Welcome

First I’d like to welcome everyone to my blog. Everyone in life has a story a story we can all learn from a story that the world will never know about. We have all been through tremendous obstacles in our lives and in this blog shattered to pieces it’s about one person’s story of how they have ran into obstacles they feel they have no way out of. This is a journey we can all take together it’s about lies defeat triumph and a search for life a normal life. Whatever that is. We all have our demons we must face and after reading this hopefully it will help you in your battles know you’re not alone or realize hey this story is so fucked up if he could come out the other side then their is hope for me. So stay and read this story of one person’s life and enjoy it. Hopefully in the end you will come out a better person for it.

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